I didn't do much today. I slept in, watched a movie, then I finally decided to get out of bed.
I got up went thru some things, got rid of some stuff, then cleaned some stuff.
Did I get what I wanted for Christmas? I can sum it up in one word. No. But what did i really want for Christmas? Did I even really know what I wanted? No, not really. What was I hoping for? I guess I was hoping for a ring and a proposal, but I knew that wasn't going to come. I don't think that is going to happen anytime soon, at all.
What am I being asked to do? I'm being asked to take in my boyfriend's 16 year old daughter who's by law and by blood not really his. Why? Because her mother is a drunk. How do I feel about this? To tell the truth, at first I was do what you need to do to get her up here. But how do I feel now? To tell the truth, I don't know. After the past few days I really don't know. I've been hurt by them both and I don't know what I want any more. How was I hurt? She believes I have been talking to her like a 10 year old which to me I haven't. I apologized telling her thru him, told him I just won't talk to her at all for the rest of her stay Yes she does a few things that irritate me, but I haven't said a thing to her about them at all.
Sunday, December 26, 2004
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