just....here

I didn't do much today. I slept in, watched a movie, then I finally decided to get out of bed.
I got up went thru some things, got rid of some stuff, then cleaned some stuff.

Did I get what I wanted for Christmas? I can sum it up in one word. No. But what did i really want for Christmas? Did I even really know what I wanted? No, not really. What was I hoping for? I guess I was hoping for a ring and a proposal, but I knew that wasn't going to come. I don't think that is going to happen anytime soon, at all.

What am I being asked to do? I'm being asked to take in my boyfriend's 16 year old daughter who's by law and by blood not really his. Why? Because her mother is a drunk. How do I feel about this? To tell the truth, at first I was do what you need to do to get her up here. But how do I feel now? To tell the truth, I don't know. After the past few days I really don't know. I've been hurt by them both and I don't know what I want any more. How was I hurt? She believes I have been talking to her like a 10 year old which to me I haven't. I apologized telling her thru him, told him I just won't talk to her at all for the rest of her stay Yes she does a few things that irritate me, but I haven't said a thing to her about them at all.

Happy Holidays

~~I just wanted to wish you all a happy holiday season. Please stay safe and warm.~~

Happy Thanksgiving

Just wishing everyone a happy thanksgiving........ stay safe!

FleetOps!!!

Ok I got an inside track on one of my favorite MODs for Armada II Fleetops. I've been hired on as a voice actor for one of thier Dominion Ships. Needless to say I'm all to happy to help out this sweet MOD. I get credits on the site and other places within the MOD. I'm hoping the get a Ship named after me or something! w00t!

On another note things continue to go well as I try to find work a touch closer to home.

Yea! End in Sight

I met with another instructor yesterday to review what classes I still need to take in order to graduate.

They are:

• Operating Systems II
• Operating Systems III
• PC Hardware II
• Local Area Networks II
• Local Area Networks III
• Wireless Communications I
• CISCO I
• CISCO II
• Help Desk, Research, & Customer Service

2 of the below to replace Beginning Computers and Intro to Computing Technology (which are required for the degree but the instructor is signing off on it so I don't have to take it, but have to take 2 of these classes to make up those 10 credits

• Network Security
• Web Server Configuration & Management
• CISCO III
• CISCO IV

Bad news though is that Cisco I was offered this quarter and I should have been in it, but due to another advisor not telling me that it was only going to be offered once a year I now have to wait till next fall to take it and next winter to take Cisco II..... but she is going to sign me into classes that have pre-reqs on it that I haven't met yet..like OS 3 since its being offered Winter Quarter.

I am also having to rearrange my work schedule again so I can get these classes in...so you may see very little from me after January 1st due to class and work.

life.....

school is ok...... wishing i was closer to graduation...but im not ...... they keep changing the requirements so now I have no clue how many more classes i need to take in order to graduate...it seems like I will never finish...i know.........its one of life's challenges.......

i miss getting to hug and kiss my sweetheart.... hes working for the next 2 weeks 24/7.... so i dont get any time with him...why??? well 1 they fired a driver..... cause he had been told not to bring his dog to work.... and he did.....2.... the owner is going on vacation for 2 weeks..........

good news: i got a promotion.:)

intersting

yea work changed the incentive program .... now its more of a competition to be in the top 50% of the funders to get the most amt of money as an incentive.

word of the day: still owwww
i fell down 8 stairs yesterday and twisted my ankle its still a little swollen but not as bad as it was....


weekend plans:
despite the injury im still going atv'ing ..... and im working ot on monday for extra money in my pocket...

its all good

yippeee

I just bought a 95 Beretta Z26. Yes I have a 94 Beretta but the 95 is in better condition than mine is in.. although it needs the transmission fixed. I will be selling my 94 Beretta.

Went ATV'ing this weekend and had a lot of fun. I want to go again. But then I want to go on a long motorcycle ride too...

have a lot to do this weekend now... got to get the 94 beretta detailed and ready to sell.... and gotta pick up the 95 and get it to the transmission shop.. got to get my stereo out of my old car so it can go in the new car... and take the factory stereo out of the 95 and put it in the 94.... a lot of stuff to do! Ackkkk so little time!

We'll show them!

Well, even though I didn't get to create the website for my boyfriend's work its ok.  We'll show them that we are better and what they are missing!  Competition!  ok what do I mean?  It means my boyfriend is getting his business license to start up his own tow company.   We bought two domain names last night that he wants me to create sites for.  So we will show them.  I know in my heart that they will not be happy with the service that they are paying $2000 for with the other company,  but hey its their money that they are wasting, not mine. 

well, I gotta ge back to work.. I already miss my bf as he leaves in the morning with a friend of both of ours for North Dakota so our friend can attend his cousin's wedding.  Sunday night better come quickly! 

 

possiblity...nill

they went with the other company that was gonna charge them $2000 to do the website..

why...what could they offer that i couldn't do?

 

Possibility?

It is looking like it is going to be possible for me to do the website for my boyfriends work, looks like I am competing with a company that will end up costing them $2000 .... which is a lot of money to be spending. It really is. I wasnt asking for a lot of money to do it either.

So I don't know. I could use the extra money but I guess I will go down the other route for other possible money...

more later.

dolphy

tired

sometimes i wonder if im pushing myself to hard.  am i overwhelming myself with stuff to get done, things to do, going to school full time, working full time.....  sometimes i feel like im drowning and dont know what to do.... 
 
all i want to do is sleep right now but i cant .....
 
the next 1.75 hrs better go by fast so i can go home....
 
dolphy

confusion

I dont know what to think. I've been trying to get a hold of my boyfriend for a couple of days, but he hasn't text messaged me back, hasn't answered the direct connects, nothing.....  I dont know what to think..dont know what to do....
 
word of the day: confused...... and dont know what to do....
 
 
questions going thru my head: why hasnt he answered me, returned a text message, has something happened... whats going on.. dont know what to think about this.....
 
 
 
dolphy

Just notes

I've been doing a lot of thinking lately and a lot of praying. I don't really know what I want to do in life, where I want to be or anything. I'm just taking things one day at a time. A couple of friends have been irritating me lately, although I know they don't mean to. But I don't think they realize that they are making assumptions that aren't true and aren't really listening either. I don't know what to do but it is getting annoying because I don't like having to correct them on it either.

So I guess I take it one day at a time and see what happens.


Dolphy

not much going on

there really isnt much going on... not happy with mom right now because of what happened last night... just taking things day by day..wondering what boyfriend wants to talk about tonight.... wishing this day would be over already....

Grades

Dances all around I got my grades! I passed my math class with a B!!! I'm happy!!!!!!!!!!! yeaaaaaa no more math!!!!!!!!!!

ok off to work see ya tonight

dolphy

Wednesday June 16th

Well, I got to sleep in so I'm happy. Haven't gotten to do that in a while.

I want my dad in my life so much I just don't know what to do to make him see that. At least Papa is knows.


Off to eat breakfast then off to work.

Finals ....Day 2

yeaaa finals are over! I'm thru for a weekkkk... I went home and took a hour and a half nap before coming to work since i got out of my final at 8:30....


ok back to work more later!

:-)

Dolphy

Finals....Day 1

Well, my math final is done. I feel extremely well about it. I had most of the problems in my notes or examples of them so I could use them to get the problem done. The one I didn't put in my notes was the circle problem and figures it was on the final. Oh well, at most I can get is a 95 on the final . As long as I pass the class with a 2.5 or better I'm happy.

I got to get back to work...will sit here and daydream as well.

Dolphy

Sunday

I went to church today, the first time in a couple of years. I liked it. The pastor was friendly and a couple of the others were as well. There were a couple of baby dedications today which was nice. They are having a picnic up there today and it would have been nice to stay and enjoy but I knew I had to get home and study. I have 3 tests from my math class to redo to help me study and 4 chapters to reread for my final on tuesday. I'm not worried about the final in my computer class so i'm spending more time on my math class in hope that it will help get a better grade and help me at least past this class. I think the main problem is the instructor, he just does the problem and doesnt give the problem and let the student work it out before he works it out. I understand we have a lot to cover but its not helping the student either.



Back to studying....

Today

I've just dragged myself out of bed after my morning ritual of giving my cat attention. I put my laundry up that I did last week and started a new load. I straightened up my bedroom as well so it looks a little better. Looks around the rest of my apartment, I need to do the same to my living room, but I need to buy my organizer cabinet so that I can get my paperwork in order. So what's on the agenda for today?

Well. Study is on the agenda.... Type up my study sheet for my operating systems class and then start taking my math quizzes all over again and use them to study and write my notes from them. Yes I know most of this is boring but it has to be done.

Dolphy

Bored out of My Mind

I'm sitting here at home bored. I need to be studying for finals but I don't want to.

Can't wait until this quarter is over so I'm done with my general education classes. I don't know how many more classes I have to take until I graduate.