Wednesday, November 12, 2025

Serving Those Who Served: My Experience at the VA Part 1



Goal:

  • Provide supportive conversation and positive distraction to at least 15 veteran patients during medical procedures or treatments over an 8-week volunteer period at the VA Medical Center Surgical Intensive Care Unit, while receiving positive feedback from medical staff regarding patient comfort and effectiveness.

Objectives:

  • Describe volunteer roles and responsibilities at the VA
  • Illustrate the types of services provided to veterans
  • Reflect on skills developed and lessons learned, what leadership skills were learned
  • Demonstrate the value of community service in healthcare settings using SWOT analysis

Project Milestones Completed:

  • Fully certified and ready to serve
  • Initial Patient Engagement
  • Establish Compassionate Care Routine
  • Project Goal Achievement
  • Reflection

The Heart of Service: Understanding Volunteer Roles and Responsibilities at the VA

 

When most people think about supporting our nation's veterans, they imagine grand gestures—parades, monuments, or national holidays dedicated to their honor. Yet some of the most profound acts of gratitude happen quietly in the halls of VA Medical Centers across the country, where volunteers show up day after day to serve those who served. My eight-week experience volunteering at a VA Medical Center opened my eyes to the diverse, meaningful, and sometimes unexpected ways civilians can support our veterans during their most vulnerable moments. Understanding the roles and responsibilities of VA volunteers reveals not just what volunteers do, but why this work matters so deeply to both those who serve and those who are served.

 

The Foundation: What It Means to Volunteer at the VA

 

Volunteering at a VA facility is fundamentally different from volunteering at civilian hospitals or community organizations. Veterans have made extraordinary sacrifices for our country, and VA volunteers carry the responsibility of honoring that service through their actions, attitude, and commitment. This isn't merely about filling a volunteer hour requirement or adding a line to a resume—it's about recognizing that the person you're helping may have risked their life so you could live freely. That awareness shapes every interaction, every task, and every moment of service.

VA volunteers come from all walks of life: students fulfilling community service requirements, retirees giving back to their communities, family members of veterans seeking to honor their loved ones' legacy, and individuals simply wanting to make a tangible difference. Regardless of their motivation, all VA volunteers share common responsibilities grounded in respect, compassion, and dedication to veteran care.

 

Typical Volunteer Roles: Where Service Happens

 

Generally, VA volunteers serve in more generalized settings rather than intensive care units, which typically have restricted access due to patient vulnerability and medical complexity. Most volunteer opportunities occur in areas where volunteers can make meaningful contributions while maintaining appropriate boundaries and safety protocols. These settings include patient recreation areas, administrative offices, outpatient clinics, cafeterias, gift shops, and general medical-surgical units.

In these environments, volunteers provide essential support through patient companionship, wayfinding assistance, administrative tasks like filing and data entry, recreation program support, canteen and gift shop operations, and escort services for patients moving through the facility. These roles may seem routine, but they form the backbone of compassionate veteran care, ensuring the facility operates smoothly while patients feel welcomed, supported, and valued.

 

The Unexpected Beginning: Service Takes Many Forms

 

My volunteer journey began not with the dramatic patient interactions I had envisioned, but with the humble work of maintaining a clean, dignified environment for healing. Alongside housekeeping staff, I cleaned patient rooms, changed linens, emptied trash, and maintained public restrooms. Initially, these tasks seemed far removed from the meaningful patient interaction I had hoped to provide. However, I quickly learned that every role within a VA facility contributes to veteran care and dignity.


When a veteran recovering from surgery wakes to find clean sheets and a tidy room, they experience respect. When a family member uses a well-maintained restroom during a difficult hospital visit, they feel the facility cares about their experience too. These seemingly small tasks form the foundation of compassionate care. VA volunteers must understand that no responsibility is insignificant—each act of service contributes to an environment where veterans can heal with dignity.


This lesson in humility and comprehensive service is fundamental to VA volunteering. Volunteers must be willing to do whatever is needed, whenever it's needed, without ego or expectation of recognition. The willingness to serve in any capacity demonstrates true commitment to the mission: supporting our nation's veterans in every possible way.

 

An Exceptional Circumstance: My SICU Experience

 

My experience took an unusual turn when I was given the extraordinary opportunity to assist in the Surgical Intensive Care Unit—a setting where volunteers are generally not permitted due to the critical nature of patient conditions and the complexity of medical care provided. This exceptional access came about because I was the daughter of a SICU nurse, and the medical staff knew and trusted me within that unique context.


When a veteran patient became extremely fearful during a necessary medical procedure, the staff asked my mother for permission to have me provide emotional support and distraction while they worked. This wasn't a typical volunteer assignment—it was an exceptional circumstance born from established relationships and immediate patient need. The medical team carefully briefed me, helped me into proper protective equipment, and supervised the entire interaction to ensure both patient safety and care quality.


This experience, while transformative for me personally, represents an exception rather than the rule. It's important for prospective VA volunteers to understand that intensive care units maintain restricted access for good reason: patient vulnerability, infection control, medical complexity, and the need for specialized training all require that these environments remain carefully controlled. My opportunity came through unique circumstances that don't reflect standard volunteer pathways.

 

Standard Patient Interaction: The Privilege of Presence

 

In typical volunteer settings throughout VA facilities, patient interaction takes many meaningful forms that don't require ICU access. Volunteers provide companionship to patients in recreation rooms, assist with organized activities and games, help veterans navigate the facility to appointments, staff information desks to answer questions and provide directions, and support outpatient services where veterans come for routine care.


These responsibilities require specific skills and awareness that volunteers must develop and maintain. First and foremost, VA volunteers working with patients must respect confidentiality. HIPAA regulations aren't mere bureaucratic requirements—they protect veterans' privacy and dignity during vulnerable moments. Volunteers learn what information can and cannot be shared, how to discuss patients appropriately with medical staff, and why maintaining these boundaries protects everyone involved.


Patient interaction also demands emotional intelligence and adaptability. Understanding the difference between a request for conversation and a desire for quiet presence, between needing assistance and wanting independence, requires attentiveness and empathy. VA volunteers must read situations accurately, respond appropriately, and adjust their approach based on individual needs.

 

Special Ceremonies: Honoring Service Through Celebration

 

One of the most meaningful volunteer responsibilities involves participating in special ceremonies that honor veterans throughout the year. VA Medical Centers host events like the National Salute to Veteran Patients, typically held in February, which brings communities together to recognize and celebrate the service and sacrifice of hospitalized veterans. These ceremonies often include patriotic programs, special meals, entertainment, and presentations that remind veterans their service is remembered and valued.


Volunteers play crucial roles in making these events successful: helping with event setup and decoration, assisting veterans in attending ceremonies, coordinating with community organizations bringing donations or entertainment, serving refreshments, and providing companionship during celebrations. These occasions transform routine hospital environments into spaces of recognition and gratitude, and volunteers serve as ambassadors connecting the veteran community with the broader civilian population that benefits from their sacrifice.


Participating in ceremonies like the National Salute reinforces why volunteer service matters. Seeing a veteran's face light up when community members arrive to honor them, witnessing the camaraderie among veterans during special events, and being part of moments that break the monotony of hospital routines reminds volunteers that their presence and effort create joy, connection, and meaning.

 

Collaboration and Communication: Working Within the Healthcare Team

 

VA volunteers don't work in isolation—they function as part of a comprehensive healthcare team. Whether supporting administrative operations, assisting in patient recreation, or helping during special events, volunteers must understand how to collaborate effectively with doctors, nurses, social workers, recreation therapists, and facility staff.


This collaboration requires clear communication, respect for professional boundaries, and understanding of the volunteer's scope. Volunteers must know when to act independently and when to defer to medical expertise, how to report concerns appropriately, and why following protocols protects both patients and volunteers. The ability to support medical professionals' work without interfering or overstepping demonstrates mature, responsible volunteering.

 

Beyond the Shift: Ongoing Responsibilities

 

VA volunteer responsibilities extend beyond the hours spent in the facility. Volunteers must maintain their training and certifications, stay current on facility policies, process their experiences in healthy ways, and represent the VA appropriately when sharing their service with others. The emotional weight of witnessing suffering, forming connections with ill or injured veterans, and confronting the realities of veteran healthcare requires volunteers to practice self-care and seek support when needed.


Additionally, volunteers carry the responsibility of advocacy and awareness. By sharing experiences appropriately while maintaining confidentiality, volunteers can inspire others to serve, advocate for veteran care resources, and raise awareness about veteran needs and the importance of community support.

 

The Essence of Responsibility: Why It All Matters

 

Understanding volunteer roles and responsibilities at the VA ultimately comes down to one fundamental truth: veterans served our nation, often at great personal cost, and we bear the responsibility of serving them with the same dedication, excellence, and sacrifice they demonstrated. Every task, from administrative support to participating in special ceremonies, from providing companionship in recreation areas to maintaining welcoming environments, reflects our gratitude and commitment.


My unusual access to the SICU taught me profound lessons about compassion and connection, but the typical volunteer roles throughout VA facilities are equally meaningful and perhaps even more sustainable for creating lasting impact. Whether you're helping a veteran find their appointment, assisting during the National Salute to Veteran Patients, or simply offering a friendly conversation in a common area, you're fulfilling the essential responsibility of showing veterans their service matters.


VA volunteering taught me that responsibility isn't a burden—it's a privilege. The privilege of serving those who served, of contributing to healing environments, and of demonstrating through action that veterans' service is remembered, valued, and honored. That is the heart of service, and that is what it means to volunteer at the VA.

Thursday, October 30, 2025

Better World Project Part 3


 

 Better World Project Part 3


Goals of my project

  • What is self-care, and why does it matter?
    • Discussed in Part 1
  • Prioritizing Wellness: Finding What Works for You
    • Resources and tools
  • How can leadership play a role? 
  • What milestones did I accomplish during this project?

Celebrating Progress: How Milestones Keep Me Motivated

When working toward any goal—personal or professional—setting milestones has been a game-changer for me. These small checkpoints give me a sense of accomplishment, help me stay focused, and remind me that progress is happening, even when the finish line feels far away.

 Throughout this project, I’ve celebrated several meaningful milestones that have supported both my productivity and well-being. One of the first was identifying apps that motivate me, help me stay focused, support meditation, and improve sleep. These tools have become part of my daily routine and have made a noticeable difference in how I manage stress and stay grounded.

 Another set of milestones involved exploring places to walk—both indoors and outdoors. I took time to find locations that matched my physical abilities and offered varying levels of difficulty. Whether it’s a hallway stroll at work, a nature trail on the weekend, or a treadmill session at home, having options makes it easier to stay consistent and adapt based on how I’m feeling.

Each milestone, no matter how small, has helped me build momentum and stay engaged. They’ve turned a broad goal into a series of achievable steps, and that’s made all the difference.

 Why Milestones Matter

  • They break big goals into manageable pieces
  • They provide motivation through small wins
  • They help track progress and celebrate growth
  • They allow flexibility and adjustment along the way

Whether you're working on a wellness project, a career goal, or a personal challenge, celebrate your milestones. They’re proof that you’re moving forward—and that’s always worth recognizing.

Milestone Celebrations

Creative Ways to Celebrate Milestones

Celebrating milestones isn’t just about marking progress—it’s about reinforcing motivation, building confidence, and creating a sense of accomplishment. Whether you’re working on personal wellness goals or leading a group activity, these celebrations can make the journey more enjoyable and sustainable.

Why Celebration Matters

Milestones act as checkpoints that remind us we’re moving forward. Recognizing these moments:

  • Boosts morale and motivation
  • Encourages continued effort
  • Strengthens accountability
  • Creates positive associations with the process

Examples of Milestone Celebrations

1. Personal Wellness Milestones

  • Treat Yourself: After completing a week of daily walks, reward yourself with a favorite coffee, a relaxing bath, or a new book.
  • Journal Your Progress: Write down what you accomplished and how it made you feel. This reinforces the positive impact and helps track growth.

2. Team or Group Milestones

  • Shout-Outs in Meetings: Recognize the group’s progress during a team meeting or in a shared chat. Public acknowledgment builds community.
  • Group Photo or Memory: Take a photo after completing a wellness challenge and share it on your internal platform to celebrate together.

3. Digital Celebrations

  • Create a Progress Badge: Share a fun graphic or badge in your group chat when a milestone is reached.
  • Post on social media: Celebrate publicly with a short post highlighting the achievement and encouraging others to join.

4. Experiential Rewards

  • Plan a Special Activity: After hitting a big milestone, organize a group lunch, a nature walks, or a virtual wellness session.
  • Upgrade Your Tools: Reward yourself with a new app, audiobook, or fitness accessory that supports your next goal.

The Bottom Line

Celebrating milestones isn’t about extravagance, it’s about acknowledgment. These small acts of recognition create momentum, foster accountability, and make the journey toward your goals more enjoyable. Whether it’s a personal treat or a group shout-out, every celebration counts.

 

SWOT Analysis: Self-Care & Wellness Project

Strengths

  • Clear milestones that provide structure and motivation
  • Use of technology (apps for focus, meditation, sleep) to support goals
  • Flexibility in walking options (indoor/outdoor, varying difficulty)
  • Strong personal commitment to well-being

Weaknesses

  • Reliance on external tools (apps) which may require subscriptions or specific OS
  • Limited time during workdays for extended self-care activities
  • Physical limitations may restrict certain walking routes

Opportunities

  • Expand group activities for social support and accountability
  • Incorporate new wellness trends (e.g., mindfulness challenges, virtual walking groups)
  • Share progress publicly (blog, social media) to inspire others
  • Use milestones as a framework for future projects

Threats

  • Weather conditions impacting outdoor activities
  • Technology issues (app compatibility, device limitations)
  • Competing priorities at work or home reducing time for self-care
  • Risk of burnout if goals become too rigid or demanding


Better World Project Part 2

 

 Better World Project Part 2

Goals of my project

  • What is self-care, and why does it matter?
    • Discussed in Part 1
  • Prioritizing Wellness: Finding What Works for You
    • Resources and tools
  • How can leadership play a role? 
  • What milestones did I accomplish during this project

Leadership and Self-Care: Finding Balance Through Collaboration

Leadership isn’t confined to the workplace—it influences how we approach everyday life, including self-care. Understanding your leadership style can help you navigate both individual and group wellness activities with confidence and clarity.

Why Leadership Matters in Self-Care

When practicing self-care alone, the focus is on personal needs—choosing what feels restorative and achievable. But when self-care becomes a shared experience, leadership plays a critical role. Group activities like walking with coworkers or planning a wellness session require coordination and consensus. Decisions such as:

  • Where to walk
  • How fast to go
  • When to start
  • How long to walk

…all benefit from a structured yet inclusive approach.

Personally, I thrive in a democratic leadership style, which emphasizes collaboration, shared decision-making, and open communication. These qualities create an environment where everyone feels heard and valued—perfect for group self-care.

How Leadership Enhances Group Wellness

Applying leadership principles to self-care fosters accountability, strengthens relationships, and makes the experience more enjoyable. It transforms a simple walk into an opportunity for connection and mutual support. When everyone contributes to planning, the activity becomes more meaningful and sustainable.

Applying leadership principles to self-care fosters accountability in several ways:

1. Shared Ownership of Goals

When a group agrees on a wellness activity—like walking or meditation—leadership ensures everyone understands the purpose and commits to it. This shared intention creates a sense of responsibility among participants.

2. Clear Roles and Expectations

Leadership provides structure. By defining when, where, and how the activity will happen, participants know what’s expected of them. This clarity reduces ambiguity and makes it easier for people to follow through.

3. Encouraging Participation

Democratic leadership invites input from everyone, which increases engagement. When people help shape the plan, they feel invested and are more likely to show up and contribute.

4. Positive Reinforcement

Recognizing effort—whether someone joins for five minutes or the full session—reinforces accountability. Leadership creates a culture where participation is valued, not judged.

5. Built-In Reflection

Leadership encourages post-activity reflection, which helps participants evaluate their commitment and identify areas for improvement. This feedback loop strengthens accountability over time.

6 Tips for Leading Group Self-Care Activities

If you’re organizing a group wellness activity, these strategies can help ensure success:

  1. Start with a Check-In
    Ask how everyone is feeling and what they hope to gain. This sets a tone of empathy and collaboration.
  2. Offer Options
    Provide choices for pace, location, and duration so participants can select what suits them best.
  3. Set a Shared Intention
    Agree on a goal—whether it’s relaxation, movement, or social connection—to align expectations.
  4. Be Flexible
    Adapt plans based on weather, energy levels, or schedules. Flexibility keeps the experience stress-free.
  5. Celebrate Participation
    Recognize everyone’s effort, whether they joined for five minutes or the entire activity. Positive reinforcement builds momentum.
  6. Reflect Together
    Afterward, share feedback and feelings. Reflection strengthens bonds and improves future activities.

The Bottom Line

Group self-care is more than exercise—it’s about building community and supporting well-being. By applying thoughtful leadership, especially democratic principles, you can create inclusive, meaningful experiences that benefit everyone involved.



Tuesday, October 28, 2025

Better World Project Part 1

 Better World Project Part 1 

Goals of my project

  • What is self-care, and why does it matter?
    • Discussed in Part 1
  • Prioritizing Wellness: Finding What Works for You
    • Resources and tools
  • How can leadership play a role? 
  • What milestones did I accomplish during this project?

For my Better Me, Better World Project, I chose to focus on Self-Care. This topic felt especially relevant to me because over the past several weeks—and even months—I’ve realized how much I’ve been caught in a nonstop cycle of productivity. Whether it’s responsibilities at home or tasks at work, I’ve been pushing myself to stay busy and get things done. I often skip breaks, work through lunch, and rarely give myself permission to pause. By the time I get home, I’m completely drained. I have no energy left to enjoy my evening, connect with loved ones, or even do things that bring me joy. This pattern has made it clear to me that self-care isn’t just a luxury—it’s a necessity.

Why is self-care important?
Self-care is essential because it helps prevent burnout and supports overall well-being. When we neglect our own needs, we risk becoming physically exhausted, emotionally overwhelmed, and mentally foggy. Taking time to rest, decompress, and recharge isn’t selfish—it’s a way to maintain balance and preserve our ability to function. Whether it’s a short walk, a quiet moment with a book, or simply stepping away from screens, these small acts of care can make a big difference.

Prioritizing self-care also helps us show up more fully in our lives. When we’re rested and grounded, we’re better able to handle stress, make thoughtful decisions, and be present with others. It improves our relationships, our work performance, and our sense of purpose. Self-care builds resilience—it’s what allows us to bounce back from challenges and keep moving forward.

Through this project, I’ve committed to making self-care a regular part of my routine. That means setting boundaries around my time, taking breaks during the day, and giving myself permission to rest without guilt. I’ve learned that taking care of myself isn’t a sign of weakness—it’s a way to strengthen my ability to care for others and contribute meaningfully to the world around me.

In choosing self-care as my focus, I’m not just improving my own life—I’m modeling a healthier way of living for those around me. And that, I believe, is a powerful step toward building a better me and a better world.

Prioritizing Wellness: Finding What Works for You

In the process of exploring different tools and resources to support personal well-being, I’ve come across several activities and ideas that truly resonate with me. It’s been a journey of discovery—one that’s reminded me how unique each person’s path to wellness can be.
What brings joy and balance to my life might not be the same for someone else. We all have different preferences, and our physical abilities vary. For instance, while one person might find peace in a long hike through the woods, another might prefer a brisk walk around the neighborhood or a quick run to clear their mind. Each choice is valid, and each one contributes to our overall health in meaningful ways.

The most important thing isn’t what you do, it’s that you do something. Taking time away from work, household responsibilities, and the daily grind to care for yourself is essential. Whether it’s movement, mindfulness, creativity, or simply rest, prioritizing your well-being is a powerful act of self-respect.

So, as you explore your own wellness journey, remember it’s not about comparing your path to someone else’s. It’s about finding what feels right for you and making space for it in your life. You deserve that time—for your body, your mind, and your spirit.

 What tools and resources are available to support your well-being?

There are several apps designed to help you relax, sleep better, and meditate. You can listen to calming music while working, walking, or winding down for bed. Popular options include Balance, CALM, and Moongate—availability may vary depending on your phone’s operating system.

For physical movement, consider walking the halls at work if it’s raining, or taking a stroll around the parking lot when the weather is nice. On weekends, explore nature with a hike, hit a local trail, or use a treadmill—whatever suits your preferences.

The key is to get moving and change your scenery. Whether it’s a short walk or a longer outing, taking time for yourself is essential for your overall well-being.

Photo Credit: Heather Lange-Wilson


Thursday, April 30, 2015

Heather's Review of Fall Semester by Stephanie Fourney

Fall Semester

by Stephanie Fournet

 

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BLURB:

A depressed English professor finds love in the most unlikely place in Stephanie Fournet's emotional debut novel, Fall Semester.

Despite his stunning good looks, Dr. Malcolm Vashal is perhaps the most detested professor on campus. A floundering career and the aftershocks of a painful divorce have left the thirty-four-year-old with more than a little self-loathing, which only grows when he meets Maren Gardner. The graduate student with the loyal heart and searching eyes is much too good for him. She is off-limits for more reasons than one, but Malcolm can’t seem to resist her.

Maren is facing the greatest loss of her life, and her family needs her now more than ever. Between caring for them and building her future, Maren doesn’t have time for a social life, much less a relationship, but she can’t push a certain green-eyed professor from her mind. She sees in him a goodness that others don’t, but that might not be enough.

As the two discover each other, their blossoming friendship soon turns into something more, but self-doubts, family tragedy, and personal demons stand in their way.


Can they overcome these odds and share a love that each desperately needs? Or will the end of the semester find them heartbroken?


Excerpt Two:


Dr. Vashal had seated himself at the dinette, but he stood when she entered, and he immediately frowned. 


“Your hair is still wet,” he reproached. “That won’t do.”

“It’s alright,” she brushed off his concern. “Shall we sit in the living room?” 

“It is not alright,” he upbraided, his frown deepening. “You have a fever and a cough, and it’s drafty in here. You’ll catch pneumonia like that.” 

At his scolding tone, the last of her energy drained out of her, and Maren sunk into a kitchen chair, laying her forehead in her hands and her elbows on the table. 

Why is he so angry? 

“Dr. Vashal,...I just don’t have it in me to dry my hair right now. Please. I need to sit down.” 

Maren was sure that she, in fact, needed to lie down. She couldn’t even bring herself to look up at him, so it was the appearance of his black Steve Madden Oxfords entering her  field of vision that told her he approached. She felt a hand on her shoulder. 

“Let me help you,” he said softly, all scolding gone. “Come.” 

He took her arm and gently guided her until she was on her feet again, and he plucked up her chair in his other hand and led them into the bathroom. Even though this was the strangest thing to ever happen in her life, Maren was too bemused to resist. She allowed him to seat her in front of the sink, and, without a word, he took down her hair dryer from the caddy above the toilet and turned it on. Maren noticed that he tested its heat and force against his own hand before aiming it at her. 

Warm air caressed her, and when he grabbed the hairbrush from the same caddy and began carefully pulling it through her hair, Maren thought her bones had gone liquid. She resumed her slumped posture, elbows on the sink and head in hands, and she closed her eyes. 

Oh my God. 

He was deliberate and gentle, catching her hair in the brush at the roots and following it down to the ends. The fine hairs on her neck stood on end, and goose bumps erupted down her arms. Maren’s scalp tingled every time the bristles of the brush stroked against it. She drowned in a sea of sensation. 

 A moan escaped her throat before she could catch herself. 

She couldn’t help it— she could only hope that he had not heard her over the hair dryer. Maren could not remember feeling so carefully and intimately attended. It was heavenly. 



Review:
I have to give this 4 stars.  I have never seen a professor go to the lengths that Dr. Malcolm Vashal does for one of his students when she is sick.  He has always come across as gruff and one that likes things his way.  However one student has caught his eye and has made him start moving back in the right direction to how he felt before the person that he loved left which sent him into this downward spiral.  


AUTHOR Bio and Links:

 

Stephanie Fournet lives in Lafayette, Louisiana—not far from the Saint Streets where her novels are set. She shares her home with her husband John and her daughter Hannah, their needy dogs Gladys and Mabel, and an immortal blue finch named Baby Blue. When she isn’t writing romance novels, she is usually helping students get into college, teaching AP English, or running.  She loves hearing from fans, so you can follow her on Facebook, message her on Goodreads, or email her at stephaniefournet@icloud.com.

 

Links:
 https://www.facebook.com/stephanie.fournet 

 https://www.pinterest.com/stephfournet/
http://www.amazon.com/Fall-Semester-Stephanie-Fournet-ebook/dp/B00FO5WDDS 

 https://www.goodreads.com/author/show/7351172.Stephanie_Fournet 
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Tuesday, May 13, 2014

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SYNOPSIS:

When trust is challenged and desire takes control, is love enough to conquer fear?

When geeky book nerd Autumn Blakewood falls for the cocky, confident fighter Hunter Bane she knows she’s in for life. Their undeniable connection, fueled by the desire to protect, grows stronger every passing second. However, the need to feel cherished threatens her college graduation, family bonds, and future, tearing her apart, but she won’t give up on Hunter so easily …

After he was abandoned by his family, Hunter Bane struggles to cope with daily life. Having a learning disability turns every task into a challenge. With his brother now free, Hunter feels the pressure to succeed and take care of the people he loves, forcing him to choose between college and a job. Hunter’s devotion to Autumn keeps him on the right path. His infatuation with her turns lust into passion, drawing out his alpha tendencies. But with affection comes admission, putting a strain on their relationship as secrets are exposed and unforeseen circumstances spiral out of control.

Being complete opposites, their love is flaming hot, but it burns away all inhibitions, unveiling the fears that were locked deep inside. As past and present collide, difficult choices must be made. Can Autumn and Hunter’s love survive this ultimate test?


EXCERPT: 
(This excerpt is unedited)

6 years ago

I’m walking home from school, wandering across the streets as I stare at the beautiful houses. Peeking into their living rooms, I can clearly see the candle flames dancing, flickering through the window like a warm, inviting light. People walking in the rooms are oblivious of me, which gives me all the more reason to keep looking. Their happy faces make me smile, if only for a second. Catching a glimpse of a normal life lets me escape from reality.

Envy unfurls in my stomach, and a bad taste enters my mouth as I spit on the ground and walk further. Up to the next house. Up to the next short moment of carelessness.

Reaching my house is the last thing I want, but I know it’ll happen eventually. I’ll have to go home. I always have to. There’s nowhere else I can go, and my brother needs me. Not as much as I need him, though. I probably wouldn’t even be alive without him.

No one at my age should be going through this. No one should be picking up their mom from the grass every morning. No kid should have to drag his mom to bed. No kid should have to raise himself.

My home is a broken one. When I spot it, a heavy feeling overcomes me. Each step I take leads to another day in hell.

The garden is littered with used needles, empty bottles of liquor, and old condoms. Me and my brother never have time to clean it all up. We’re too busy trying to keep the house clean enough to live in.

As I enter the house a familiar, but disgusting stench causes me to cough. All the windows are closed, smoke wafts through the air, bottles are scattered on the table, and an empty bag of white powder is in my mother’s hand as she hangs like a wet rag in her seat. Ash grey hair sticks to her face, masking her eyes. Her head is on the table, and she’s snoring loudly. The only thing keeping her in place is her bony ass stuck to that chair she only leaves to get some more. More of whatever she needs to satisfy her addictions.

“Hey, bro,” Jessie says. He’s unwinding the vacuum plug, turning it on at the same time.

“Hey …” I say.

“Sorry, thought I’d have it cleaned up by now, but it was too much of a mess.”

“Don’t apologize,” I say. “It’s not your fault.”

He smiles briefly. “I know. I just don’t want you to see it.”

A moment of silence passes between us, the air thick with unspoken words. I owe my brother so much. He’s the only one taking care of both of us right now. I wonder how long we’ll last if she keeps this up.

I start unpacking my things, shoving my mother aside from the table so I have enough room to check what I need to do. My notebook is filled to the brim with short texts of things I need to remember. My memory always fails me, especially when it comes to short term things like homework or names. It’s been like this for as long as I can remember. My brother thinks it’s because of my mother. We don’t know her any other way than she is now. Drunk. Addicted. Full on drugs.

Just thinking about it makes my skin crawl. Sometimes I really hate her, but she’s my mother too. I owe her for keeping us alive, for trying to do her best to give us a home. 

Somewhere along the way she failed. I can’t not resent her for that. At times I wonder if she ever intended on having us or if we were accidents she regrets.

It doesn’t change anything about our situation. It doesn’t change anything about the fact that it’s her fault I have a learning disability and my brother has ADD.

One of the notes slips from my book, and it lands on her arm. The paper immediately stains with blood. Sighing, I pick up the piece of paper and notice the puncture marks on her skin. She looks more like an orange than a human sometimes, that’s how many holes she shot into herself. So many it doesn’t stop bleeding. Still, it doesn’t make her quit.

Suddenly, she grabs my hand, and I’m startled by her movement. I jolt up and pull my hand back as her head shoots up from the table. Her eyes are bloodshot, staring back at me with a crazy look like she doesn’t know who I am. It takes her a few seconds to register that it’s me, and then a smile slowly creeps onto her face, exposing her black, broken teeth and smelly breath.

“Hunter …” she mumbles.

Her hand drops off the table, the bag of powder tumbling to the floor. The sound immediately catches her attention, as if it’s food for a starving woman. Bending to pick it up, her fingers tremble as she reaches for the bag.

“Shit. It’s empty again.”

“You used too much again,” I add.

“No, no, no, this can’t happen,” she mumbles, clearly still under the influence.

“Mom. Calm down. You can go without it for a few hours. You won’t die.”

“No, I can’t!” she gets up from her seat, barely able to stand as her legs are two thin sticks ready to snap.

“I’m going to get more,” she stammers, grabbing me by the coat.

“Let go of me,” I say.

“You can’t stay here alone with your brother.”

“Why not?”

“Because …” she sniffs. “I need you. I can’t do this without you.” She wipes away the tears filling her eyes. She, most of us all, is unable to face the monster she’s become.

“No, mom. I’m not coming with you. I’m not going to be your busboy again. Not anymore.”

“What? You don’t mean that. You know I need you. Please don’t let me go through this alone.” She tightens her grip on my arm, dragging me to the door. Resisting is what I should be doing, but I don’t want to hurt her. She’s been hurt enough in her life.

“Stop,” Jessie shouts. He stops vacuuming, turning it off. His fists are balled, his nostrils flaring, and his stance is aggressive, as if he’s about to attack my mother. I know he would if it was necessary.

“Let. Him. Go.” His teeth barely separate as he speaks the words. His furrowed brows even scare me.

Her fingers untangle themselves from my arm, and I shake myself loose from her grip. I turn away from her, slanting to the side because I’m scared she might grab me again and make a run for it. My brother is and always will be the only thing keeping her from ruining not only herself but me, too.

“Fine, but I’m going,” she says, and after making a horrible face she walks out the door. The slam that follows force the tears to spring from my eyes.


Review: 
I was given this ARC in return for a honest review.

Clarissa Wilde hit this one out of  the park. I instantly became a fan of hers after reading and reviewing the first two books in this series.  Ms. Wilde continued this story of Hunter and his Leafy right where the previous book ended. The story started off with the main characters going to pick up Jessie (Hunter's brother) from jail and going back to Hunter's childhood home. With this event happening it forces Hunter to  face and finaly explain to  Autumn some of his childhood demons. We as readers get a chance to learn the unfortunate events that cause not only Hunter to act the way he does but also sheds light on some of Jessie's issues as well. We learn of the horrible situations that both boys were put in by their mother and their reactions. Reading this section brought tears to my eyes. It is raw and very much real to some. Also in this book we are given the opportunity to meet Autumn's parents. How they interact with other and also the constant ups and downs that effect her life. With a dying mother and a disapproving father,Autumn soon will have to learn to either grow a backbone or retreat back to her old self.

Throughout the story the underlying theme (in my option) is Redemption. The Characters have to constantly prove to not only to each other but to themselves that they are worthy of love. This story is definitely not a stand alone and the first two books are a must read. The epilogue kicks butt and I definitely needed to get a tissue. I won't spoil the entire thing but I feel it is one of my new "Go To" books and Hunter just made my list of book boyfriends. So sad to see this series end but can't wait to see what is is to come next from this author.




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Clarissa Wild is the Amazon Bestselling Romance author of FIERCE, a top 200 and top 15 New Adult Romance novel. She is also a writer of erotic romance such as the Blissful Series, The Billionaire's Bet series, the Doing It Series and the Enflamed Series. She is an avid reader and writer of sexy stories about hot men and feisty women. Her other loves include her furry cat friend and learning about different cultures. In her free time she enjoys watching all sorts of movies, reading tons of books and cooking her favorite meals.

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Monday, March 10, 2014

Where my mind is.....

Just a picture --- to relax by.....  wishing I was sitting on the rocks with my feet in the water and a dog or two by myside........  course one of the dogs would be in the water!  I'd have to be careful not to let him get to the waterfall and go over!